Weight Loss Journey

It's been interesting experience. I became a beach body coach earlier this year after having great results from 21 Day Fix. I drink shakeology daily at workout 6/7 days a week. I meal prep Sundays for my work week. Here's where the problem lies I havent been loosing weight. I hit my low weight early this year and haven't been able to get back down. It's been really hard to not treat myself. So I made the decision it's time I join a gym. It's been a long time since I was an actual member. I just know that my body has come as far as it can with my at home workouts. I'm also training for my 1st 10k in Nov. it's a Disney run so I'm super stoked about that!! Not sure how long this journey will take but I've gone this far can't stop now.

Year 29

Year 29

My last year in my 20s kicked off with seeing one of my faves Beyoncé and that night I decided that 29 was going to be my year. Everything I wanted to do I was going to try and make happen. Nothing was going to stand in my way. As Jay Z said that night a year ago today " Dream Big and be unrealistic." 

1st thing I had planned was my cruise with Backstreet Boys and my BSB Bffs! Moni and Meli! In the past I wasn't able to go to the cruises because I work at a shit job that had this thing called "blackout" no days off during holidays. Which of course was when BSB had their past cruises. Now with my new job I got the opportunity to take time off and enjoy my 1st trip to Miami and the Bahamas. All after Pilar gave birth to her son Ethan. 

Prior to the cruise I started to watch the food I was eating thanks to the stomach ulcers I had which we found out was due to my gallbladder being broken.  After the cruise I returned to work and that's all I had time for with a trip to Disneyland here and there and hanging with Tammi, Ryder and Carter. I was concerned about making sure everything stayed the same during Pilar's maternity leave. We did a weight loss challenge at work and in my group I lost 8 pounds. Which kicked me into really trying to made lifestyle changes.

The holidays came around and I started to feel like ok maybe I should try this thing they call dating again. It had been forever. I said a prayer/tweeted God I felt my heart was ready to fall. Clearly he listens cause the next day I saw a guy with a killer smile and I was like yep that's what I want. Numbers were exchanged and I spent 2.5 hours on the phone with him. It felt like I was back in HS. Our 1st date of course was magic it was at the happiest place on earth!  I thought this was the one for sure he met my mom and brother which says a lot cause Ander is a critic. Fast forward to 6 months later I was heartbroken asking myself wtf did I do wrong? What did I say? Why wasn't I enough? Maybe I didn't love hard enough? Maybe I'll never know. But clearly God was trying to tell me something and I was listening loud and clear. Talk about world shattering. I'm not going to say I didn't have mini break downs cause I did. Thanks to those who checked in and made sure I was ok and just let me cry when I needed to. You all know who you are. This is what all those heartbreak songs people sing about feel like. I wanted no part of it. So I took time to figure out what's my next step? The lesson I learned was that I can't control everything and trusting is something so scary but is also so needed in a relationship. All I could do was pray for understanding and healing. Everything happens for a reason and some lessons are way more painful than others. At some point my happily ever after is bound to happen.

 I had already made plans to continue my work outs with coworkers. I was officially down 60 pounds. Then it was time to start the planning of my Dirty 30! Which was bittersweet cause I felt a big part of my 29th year wouldn't be there to celebrate with me like I had planned. I carried on and went along with making arrangements, got invites made and mailed out, decorations, food, cake and goodies picked out. Plus my Beyoncé "Blow" inspired outfit! I am ready to turn 30! 

As this decade of my life closes I'm super freaked out and excited at the same time. This year was eventful to say the least and I feel stronger than ever mentally, physically and emotionally. For 30th year I'm going to continue to "Dream Big and be unrealistic" plus they say 30s are the new 20s right?

Heartbreak To Breakthrough

As I approach my 30th birthday I've been reflecting on how I spent my 29th year. It's been a roller coaster to say the least. It definitely wasn't the funnest roller coaster but I'm enjoying the ride. My highs were amazing and I'm glad experienced them but at the same time  my lows were not expected and heartbreaking. That's life right? Or at least that's what I've been told. Clearly I was not living "life" like these people had been. I guess what I can look forward to is a new year to make it my own. Learn from mistakes I feel I made and try to make the best of the situation. I've forgiven those people I felt hurt me but most importantly I had to forgive myself. Now I'm focusing on myself and my happiness. God has plans for my life so I'll let him order my steps accordingly.

Dream

I dreamed of you last night. It was so real. Maybe someday I will see you in real life.

BSB Cruise Door Decorations Weekend

So this weekend  I took the train back up north to visit my cabin mates for the upcoming BSB Cruise to work on our door decorations which look amazing so far....I had a blast hanging out with their families and seeing their hometowns. It's crazy to think The Backstreet Boys have brought some awesome people in my life. The cruise is next month so our last minute shopping has begun. Bring on October!

In A World Like This Tour Summer Starts Up Again This Week!

Im excited that the boys will be hitting the road again at the end of the week.(Hardest working guys in the business.) Lots of awesome stuff happening in the month of May! Two vacations in one month It's going to be great! Vegas with my family then BSB with the BSBFFs. April has been pretty cool month hung out with my cruise roommates at Disneyland that was so much fun can't wait to see them later for the tour!!! Everything is a go for our show. Travel plans in place. I just need to get my train ticket. I am excited to ride the train up north its been years since I've been on the train. My 1st mini solo adventure. Only thing we need now is after party ticket announcement Cause Ain't No Party Like a Backstreet Party!!!

In A World Like This Summer Tour 2014

So Backstreet Boys announced the long awaited Summer tour for the 2nd US/Canada Tour! The Tour was announced on a Friday and tickets went on sale that following Monday! It was the longest weekend ever!!  BSB had lots of tour dates on the west coast! One at The Forum in LA which is where I 1st saw them back in 1999. I really wanted to go that show but its on a weekday and I'm trying to save all my vacation time for the cruise. While talking it over with my BSBFF's I realized I had already picked a 3 Day Weekend to visit Monique up north to work on Cruise door decor and just have a girls weekend...guess who has two shows scheduled that weekend....Backstreet Boys!!! How crazy is that when I looked at the calender I almost cried it was meant to be! So it was settled I am headed up north to see the boys again!! Last trip up north turned out to be epic I have high expectations for this trip. Oh yeah and I scored PIT tickets this time around!!! I will be in the middle of all the action and we are all doing Silver VIP so we can get a group pic with the boys!!!  Let the countdown begin! I kinda want to get tickets to see them in Vegas.....but we will see if I can swing that.